I’m trying so much to understand, but why does it seem so hard?
I’m back just yet again, to dealing with this kind of horrible pain,
It’s so absolutely unfair, but then again life is never fair,
How is it that once again I’ve lost, and I’m back to being sad and sour,
It’s never really going to be easy, no matter how I try to not feel it.
I’m not good at crying, but I can’t control this uncontrollable hurting,
I want to try and forget, but the memories are not close to being wanting,
What should I do then, to make it easier and not haunting,
I have no other choice, but to heal myself solely,
If I’m just patient enough, I’ll finally reach where I want desperately.
See love is never easy, otherwise it would be so boring,
The fear of the unknown, makes it much more worth it,
Whether we like it or not, at some point we are going to have it,
Whether it’s ends so early, or it could last a whole century,
The only truth there is, we all want a taste of it.
Should I just give up, and never wait for the one I desire to show up,
Or should I just keep waiting, for the one I want to take his time arriving,
Or should I just look for him, until I exhaust my body from too much searching,
Or should I just lean on God, and wait for his blessing to come whole,
I think I should choose God, after all he knows exactly what my soul wants.
Now let me stop being too hard, on myself like this day is my last,
I’m going to cry when the tears come, and I’ll cry without feeling like I’m doing harm,
I’m gonna stare into space like I’m mad, and sigh so hard because I’m tired,
Where is that cake I very much love, red velvet is my new true love,
Moving on is my goal now, cheer me on because I’m going to win it all.
To be honest with myself though, it was the best I’ve ever known,
I’m not sure if I’ll be this lucky, to get another love so endearing,
It was one of the best leaps, that my faith led me to believe,
I’m sure I’d have regretted not going all in, I chose to let life lead on it,
I’m proud of myself for real, how would I have known there’s something so deep?
The best things seem not to last, whether it’s fate or destiny I may never grasp,
They say that in life, which I know for sure it’s not a lie,
Everything happens for whatever reason, whether it’s forever or for a season,
I’m learning to embrace life’s events, good or bad to make my heart beat out of my chest,
But the truth in life’s case, love will always be the best.
I’m too happy to have known you, it’s a beautiful heartache I’ll take in full,
Whether we meet in this life, or wait till in the next afterlife,
I’m so completely and much sure, I’d choose you over anyone with your heart so pure,
I’m still so young I can’t give up, I’m not too weak to let this cloud me up,
Gu Family Book taught me better, even an old shoe has it’s partner.
“Never be in a hurry; do everything quietly and in a calm spirit. Do not lose your inner peace for anything whatsoever, even if your whole world seems to be upset.”
~Saint Francis de Sales